Life is in your hands

Sometimes you just need a little push Sometimes you need a little push and that push often comes when you are ready or when it's forced on you. There's nothing as action making as a forced situation. The forced feeling often come from ourselves and not the outside world, but it can feel like it's the outside world forcing us, but in fact it is we as people who are sick and tired of how the outside world feels we are forced to change it or we will perish. When you have a situation that makes it feel forced it's just yourself that has reached a limit of "that's it!! No more!" and you take some actions to change the situation to something you want it to be. There are many things that can push you over the edge, but that little push is all it takes and your off to create something better. There are times in life when you think about changing something or you think this would be better if it was like this instead. And I wish I could have that, but OM...

So many times we have this experiences in life where we might think; "that's it! My life is over!" But then time goes by and suddenly without realizing what happened, your fine... Human bodies wants to live. You want to be happy!  Our physical bodies is designed to survive. When we get too cold, our blood concentrates on keeping our organs warm so we will live. Our Body sacrifices our fingers and toes first (that's when we get neilbite). Then when we're continue to freeze our blood creeps closer to our organs and sacrifices our hands and feet. As long as we are unnaturally cold this is our body's only mission to keep us alive. And to live we need heart, lungs, kidneys and all the other internal organs. We don't need our arms and legs. Our physical body is not concerned about the quality of life it's only interested in life. It's a non feeling "law" like gravity, black and white, no grey areas, you either live or you die. So when you ...

I've been in my second home, the Island of Tobago, for 3 weeks and as always I always have the best time when I'm there!! I actually feel more at home when I'm there than I do in Norway where I'm from... I think it has to do with the culture!! The people there are so open minded and spiritual! They have a sense of self worth that I haven't found anywhere else in the world!! When I talk to my "family" in Tobago about what I'm doing and what kind of changes I'm making in my life they all salute me! I get positive feedback and a forward that moves me!! I made a new friend on this trip! He's my mans partner and he came over from Trinidad to do some work and we ended up having breakfast when he was driving me to my girlfriend! He talked to me about how special I am and that nobody is like me! He said "you are unique, you are so special and beautiful and your time to blossom is coming"  Tears started to run from my eyes and my hea...

My biggest challenge turned out to be my biggest blessing and I learned that people have tremendous strength. Having said that, I didn’t see it like that when it happened. I was in shock, I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. I didn’t know what was appropriate or even how I really felt about it. I just watched my mom fall to pieces and listened to what she had to say with disbelief and questions. Could this be real? Is she tricking me, does she have a hidden camera, is this a joke, if it is it’s a terrible one. But there she was, dead serious and on the floor of my kitchen, crying her heart out in grief from the shock she just experienced. And what did I do? Her daughter, I was just standing there not knowing how to respond, not knowing what to say and I didn’t even attempt to comfort my mom. I cannot remember I can't remember what day it was, but it was probably Saturday because I was home at the time. It was morning about 10 am I guess, because my mom asked for breakfast ...